I was thinkin...

So the other day I was thinkin, which i guess i do too much---anyway, i thought about how today we have a lot more risks in the world and problems and all. And how materialistic we are---and then it dawned on me that this could be because the world is so much worse now, that for every bad thing that happens, which is usually a pretty bad thing, we need something equally good and big to make up for it. Back in the days I'm sure a flower or a song could make somebody happy. Now we need a new car or a new boyfriend to fix everything. We are constantly looking for flashy new things to fix our problems. And so I thought "Wow. If one sunset can make up for all the crap I deal with in one day such as a death or a fight or a reoccuring fear or nightmare, then I must be pretty well off." And I think people shouldn't be picky about what makes them happy, but they also should. They shouldn't let some crappy party or one night of getting wasted let them fulfill their happiness. That's reliance. They should be picky in that sense. But they should let themselves enjoy a song or a dance or a thought. Something simple but real unlike the things we do to make our problems seem less real. My friend last year said "I wish I could be happy like you and get excitied over small things so easily." And I just said "I don't try. It's not hard. I don't have to look hard for happiness. I see something that makes me happy like a shooting star or a broken train car to climb in, and I let it become my absolute happiness for that time." So I don't know of that all makes sense to you. But there it is.