Fricken Hilarious but you don't care

Wow it's funny. My friend dated my "ex" as you say around the same time last year. She started school dating him just like me. Around that time there was another girl he was with and then he moved onto her just like he moved onto me. Then he took interest in another girl and said they should "go on a break" around the same time and he did just the same thing to me. Then we stayed together just like they did. Then they broke up around the same time we did. then my friend dated this other guy soon after kind of what I'm doing. And for some reason i find the whole thing coincidental and hilarious. I know it's kind of personal info but nobody I know reads this so it doesn't matter. It's crazy. I feel like I can see the all knowing knowledge source now. Hahaha. It's like when you're in a maze you're in a daze and once you're out, you realize you didn't know shit. It's true! i had so many different views on him and now I can see the whole picture and think "what was I thinking?" and I don't regret much but like I see so many other sides to him now and I realize nobody is perfect. So anyways I thought it was funny. He's finally seeming happy now and we are acting normal now. I realize now I really like him as a friend A LOT more cuz he doesn't seem the type to be able to make up his mind when it comes to dating. He'll be with "the one" and then another "one" will come along and he'll suddenly lose interest in his "love" or whatever fairly fast. then again I'm overly emotional and paranoid but At least I know I can be happy and secure alone. I know I moved on faster than I thought I would but it's because I realized that this whole thing wasn't as serious as I took it all. I can't believe I was thinking of staying together for a really long time. I look back and I feel so empowered yet amazed by my new knowledge and outlook of it all. hahaha I probably sound like a bitter bitch right now but I'm serious. He said we could date again but the more I think about it the funnier it seems. I guess if we grow and change and mature more by then it's possible but he seems so indecisive sometimes I don't know if I'd want to. I just realized that I feel so much better with him as just a friend. Because when we were topgether I'd drive myself crazy and be worried about everything and it ending and all. I don't want that again. Anyways I know I sound critical and like a horrible person right now for saying all that but I'm not saying I'm a great person or that he's not a great one. But damn some people are just SO much better as friends. Milo and Otis were awesome pals but they never would've made it in a relationship (esp. cuz I think they were both males lol) but you get my point. I just can't believe how happy I am. I feel so damn empowered! Anyways, I'm so happy with everything as of now. It's great. I just want us to stay friends and not be rubbing things in eachothers faces like "Ha! I've got a relationship and you don't and I moved on from you so don't think I care about you anymore" and all the shit that comes with friends after relationships hahaha.
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