things on camera always seem better than what they really are...

so i had to bullshit my way through denny's to leave early. i was tired but once i got another goddamn "you're not over adam comment" i was too pissed to stay and now too pissed to sleep so here i am bitching again. it's like everybody looks at me with this attitude that i'm so sensitive and adam was my first love and i'll never get over him because i truly loved him. what a bunch of shit. yeah so it's taking a while to move on but that doesn't mean anything. you try dating somebody that long and hard and see how you fucking cope afterwards, kay? it's just been a rough year and so things have hit harder but people are seeing me as so fucking weak and it's really starting to piss me the fuck off. anyway, i want to get amanda out of captivity and take her to where i hiked last week which was absolutely gorgeous. hmmm can't think of anything else to say. i'm gunna have another hook up which is always meaningless yet fun i guess. school will be starting soon which sucks i guess and i have work tomorrow. and i want to go fuck stuff up. ok that's all for now.