I am so F---ed

So yeah today I totally screwed myself because i was backing out of my driveway and didn't see this guys god---- motorcylce parked behind my f------ car. So I am looking the other way to make sure I don't hit anything and in a hurry to make my hair appointment. So all of a sudden, bam, i f---ing hit something. And guess what, it's this guys f---ing brand new motorcylce. So I jump out, and am thinking $#!t, fvck, and any other words that came to mind. I was quite upset but not as upset as when he came over and started bitching "If that was a kid, you woulda killed him!" and i'm thinking, wtf does that have to do with anything. So I am just generally mad now because he starts to bitch and all I can do is say sorry but he doesn't stop so all of a sudden I get mad because he sounds like I did it on purpose so I say every swear word known to man, punch my car, the table, and window, and once I'm done with my hate fest, he starts to calm down. He and my dad try to get it running and can't so every time i check and it isn't running I start to cuss everything out again because if I'm the one bitvhing and screaming it will leave no room for them to say anything to me. So we got it running and now this guy is probably gunna screw us over for money because from the sounds of it, he might be lying about the price range of it. There are 3 little scrapes on his goddamn helmet so I have to replace this fvcking $500 helmet because well that's how this shit goes. I should have mentioned to him that if he crashes on his bike and breaks his neck that there will be more than a few scratches on his helmet. But since there are 3 small scartches I have to buy this ------ a new helmet. So yeah I was generally really really really pissed off and I swear to God I was out for blood once I got on the road. Now I have to take the money that I wanted to save for Finland for Spring Break to fix this guy's bike. I figure, fuck if I was gunna have to buy another helmet because of 3 scratches, I should've just fucked the whole thing up to make it worthwhile. Then since it fell on it's side, shit broke off and now he has to fix it and we have to pay him. I guess I know how Eddie felt when he hit Dyllon's car (excpet he had the money to pay for it...I have barely enough for the helmet). And I totally just saw my cat spaz out and have a dream or something weird. So yeah then I went and took my anger out on my driving which obviosuly was stupid but this "accident" wasn't cuz of speed, it was cuz I was blinded. I also have to fix my fucking tailight which is busted. So I hung out with my friends to calm down and then Eddie called me from some hotel and it toally made my day and got me really happy despite my shitty day. When I talked to my boyfriend he just made me feel shittier by doing the usual "Oh hey what's up. Yeah..oh hey can I call you later?" and then later "Oh hey how are you. Cool, I'm at the movies, I have nothing to do. Well hey I can't talk, I'm going to hang out with friends until the ungodly hours of the night. Glad to hear you're alive. I'll call you later (as in a few days)." So that was shit and so now here I am happy that Eddie said he will write to me, excited for tomorrow night's adventures, and not ready for college, and finishing up writing this blog.
Saturday night was much more fun. I saw all my friends and we were completely obnoxious at Denny's and had TONS of fun. I'm shocked I didn't pass out from laughter. So that was fun especially because Billy is just always funny. That day was awesome because I got to go to an awesome Italian restaurant in Escondido. It was soo good and now I love it. MMMM. Crap now I'm hungry. SO after Denny's we went to eddie's place and hung out and laughed more. Then Jimmy and Billy left and Eddie and I hung out for quite a bit longer. We saw blankets of fog roll in and he drove me to random places and then we ended up looking at the moon and I said how it looked like an egg. And so now EGG is one big joke, especially because it's just such a funny word. The next night I got to see Eddie one last time before he left and we hung out did mostly the same stuff but it was more fun this time for whatever reasons. and monday i slept all day and then went to work. And then I'm back to today. So the past couple nights were peaceful but work was stressful as was today. So I think I need food and then I need bed. I have various obligations tomorrow. So later.