My brain is shattered into pieces...

So I've been doing better. I am finally taking Billy's advice and not obsessing over the small things in life that get to me, but rather letting the small things I enjoy make me happy and it;s a lot more fun being happy. I almost was thankful the past couple of nights that I'm dealing with all this shit that I hate because, I don't know. I almost felt like it was a blessing to feel crappy a lot so I can finally teach myself how to be happy which I'm not very good at. I love to be happy but if shit goes wrong then I just give up which is stupid. So I've been daydreaming about things and doing things that make me happy and just letting things I love take me away. My brain is shattered though because my classes are fricken complicated. So by the time this semester is over (hopefully will go by really fast) my brain will be broken. So I've got lots of crap to do today but I have a night class at 6:30p in Poway and I woke up a little bit ago because I'm fuckign sick and tired of feelings sleepy so I slept in for a long time but now I've got no time to do a bunch of crap. Oh, well. Guess it's time to jack up the caffeine and get fucked up. See you all laters.