weird stuff at work

so it's kinda weird but there's this guy at work that every time i see him, i just cant help but smile and i get really happy...well not like ecstatic but i say hi and just smile a lot and cant help it and i cant stop smiling until he walks away. the thing is i dont like him or have a crush and he's not the sharpest person-he just likes to do drugs (mainly weed) and smoke cigarrette's alot. and hes kinda slow but hes nice. and i joke around with him and call him lazy and then will apologize and we just kid around when he helps me in pantry- and its sooo nice to have someone to talk to at that job. so i get just really happy when i see him and just really like him but its not like i have a crush or am even attracted or anything. its really weird. anyway decided to post that. and also, its supposed to rain...hooray!!!! i cant wait!i cant wait- sitting by the cracking fire, soaked from the rain, holding hot chocolate and a bag of popcorn with a movie on, xmas tree lights glowing in the room, the smell of pinecones, drifting to sleep in someones arms (well that doesnt matter but it would be nice, even if its a nonromantic thing). i love this time of year sooo much and i know ill be ecstatic once summer comes again and i can sleep like a cat in the sun again.