well well well...

i actually laughed at work yesterday, like a real laugh not one of those phony ones i do in front of customers. i just realized i haven't really laughed like that in a while. except at volleyball. and the new cat we got for our grandma ran away already which sucks because she was only a year old but hey, at this point, i'm used to everything around me going away or dying anyway. i wouldn't be surprised of a big meteor just crashed in ramona and killed everything. it might as well. anyway, this morning sucks. i did not want to wake up. i didn't want to get out of bed. i looked forward to nothing. i didn't feel like doing anything, nothing sounded appealing, which is exactly how yesterday morning went and the same as thursday morning. just the same old boring routine in life with the only suprises being "hey gues what, somebody died!" or something to that effect. if god is trying to send me a message, i'm starting to pick up on it. anyway, i'm done with my sarcastic depression blog for now. i'm sure those who read are sick of my bitching but hey, they don't have to read it if they don't like it. so it's off to get ready to take grandma all the way down to church and another shitty sunday morning as usual. maybe i'll get lucky and get in an accident too :) (yeah that's sarcasm so don't freak out on me)